AWESOMENESS in the HOUSE!

Run away with me?

I'M SCARED. Chai's just been admitted into Asian Hospital this afternoon because she'd been vomiting . . . My sister suspects it's stress and over-fatigue. Yesterday was our Community Day, and Chai had a lot to do that day - helping out at the midway point at the EnviRUNment, preparing for the fun games which were cancelled due to the rain, and leading her batchmates in the chant contest, which they won. Plus she still had to do a few edits of an article when she got home. . . .

It's so hard. Most of the time I wish I were just a normal, 'average' student. I'd just always be in 'petiks' mode, not worrying about getting perfect scores in quizzes, or aiming for a high grade in a project or even in the card, not caring about my conduct grade and I could do whatever I want . . . Life seems easier and a lot less stressful like that, when you don't give a care about anything at all. But people like me aren't expected to be that way, are we?

I've seriously been thinking about running away, not showing up for some time, going to a far away place all by myself. I just need to take a break from everything that's causing me stress right now. If I run away, I would come back all fresh and renewed. I just want to start all over again, start clean. I have to get my mojo back, 'cause currently it's on vacation, calling me to go on vacation, too. I feel like running away is the only way.

Labels: rant, school, Senior Year