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Help me make a stand

So last Monday we had our miting de avance and I got really depressed that my voice wasn't loud enough so they didn't hear it much. Plus I got cut by Sir Chris in the middle of my speech. I originally planned to post it on Facebook but that might be overcampaigning already, so I'm gonna write it here instead. Anyway, the elections are over, but I'm gonna write it here so that I can remember what I said. :)

Actually I removed the file from my USB and it turns out that my sister deletes all the files in the recycle bin so . . . Yeah, it's lost forever. But I'll try my best to remember all of it. This isn't for you, this is for me. :)

Out of 500 students here in CDBS, only 11 are willing to make a stand. I am one of them.

In a generation where we are grouped into different stereotypes and our capabilities become limited, kung saan ok lang na sagutin mo yung mga nakakatanda sa'yo, kung saan cool na matulog sa klase, kung saan astig ka kapag di ka gumawa ng assignment at quiz, sino pa ba ang maglalakas ng loob na baguhin lahat ng yun?

You expect me to say, "I am. I am brave enough to start the change." But no, we're not going to that part of my speech yet. Because I can't tell that to you without first letting you know that I, too, thought of those things as cool, treated them as a joke, and nothing more. Masaya pa nga kapag maingay sa klase. Minsan pa yung sitting arrangement, nagiging cheating arrangement na.

But then I realized, just sitting there, that allowing my classmates to do such things, is another way of allowing them to cheat their futures. I HAVE BEEN WITH THEM MY WHOLE LIFE. I CARE ABOUT THEM. I WAS NOT ABOUT TO LET THEM RUIN THEIR OWN FUTURES.

And that was my wake-up call. Na-realize ko na natatakot sila, nahihiya sila. Pero ako, hindi ako nahihiya. Hindi ako natatakot.

And this is the time you hear me say, "I am. I am brave enough to start the change." Just as much as I care about the juniors, is as much as I care about each and everyone of you. Bosconian family ko kayo. It is my duty as your sister to help you see what is right and what is wrong. Tawagin niyo pa ako ng kung anu-anong names kapag napagalitan kayo, but you'll realize if it were not for the constant reminders, you'd be making your way to the top someday, only to let everyone see you fall back down.

Discipline equals self-control plus wisdom. Through my many experiences, I have gained both. Discipline is being unafraid to stand up for what is right. And after nine years of staying here in this school, I know what is right and what is best.

I am Denise Soriano. I am your wake-up call.

HA. Damn . . . I wish I had a clearer voice because I really wanted everyone to see this. :P Thank you so much Abby for all your help. :)

Labels: school, VOTE

Sunday, March 20, 2011

5:38 AM

Thank You's 2011 :)

Today, I got devastated. Okay, I originally was to type the reason why, but then just seeing it makes me all depressed again, so never mind. :)) I mean, you don't have to get it, anyway, but if the people I am about to include in this post ever get the chance to read this (yeah, there's like, 0.1% chance of that), well . . . this is all for you. ^___^ Here it goes.

THANK YOU. . . .

To Raffy, well, this isn't a thank you, but an encouragement. Sabi ni Meg, at least kahit papano alam nila na mas mataas pa rin tayo kesa sa iba. HINDI ITO PAGMAMAYABANG ITO AY PANININDIGAN HAHAHA :)) (Quote from Emi!) We're gonna do better next year, man. We will unleash our power. Let's work together!! :D:D:D:D

To Sir Andy, for sticking up for me and Raffy, even if you aren't our adviser. I mean, I really wish you'd be our adviser because you are awesome XD Thank you for caring for us and for showing us what to do so we can get a chance. Thank you, just for being there even if you don't have to. :)

To Tr. Edith and Tr. Benny, for telling me, "Pangit din kasi yung aakyat ka ng stage na Gen. Scho. ka nga, pero sasabihin namin, 'Ay yan, Gen. Scho. lang yan kasi cinonsider ko yan eh.' At least kapag umakyat ka ng stage ang sasabihin namin, kahit Academic Achiever ka, 'SAYANG.' Diba? Mas maganda yun?" Thank you for making me realize those things, and for encouraging me. And thank you for telling me my equivalent grades in Drafting! Haha! At least, now I know. Thank you. :D

To VOTE Party + other peeps (Eminence, Ranie, Pambid, Meg, Joanna, Paige, Dada, Xander, Paolo, Ilao, Anjo, Kyle and Alyssa), for the lunch/victory party at Shakey's after dismissal. :) Even if we were incomplete. :) But yeah, I had fun with you guys, especially in the Fun Zone. :))

To Meg and Emi, for making me laugh when we were stopping over at Xander's house, by singing, Friday Friday gonna get down on Friday =)) Why wouldn't I laugh because of that? And because of you two. x] And for saying I'm an Akasha bush. HAHAHA! :P Thank you for the laughs I had with you and the laughs we're going to have. ;) ^__^

To Meg, just Meg, for your time, for your patience, for your sympathy, for your kindness and awesomeness. :D For inviting me to your house to watch Tangled (but in the end we watched Despicable Me), that was really unexpected. ^__^ For sharing some of your secrets. :))) For making me watch Nigahiga videos on YouTube. For playing Air Hockey and Dance Dance Revo at Shakey's :)) For letting Jenna watch the movie with us. :)) For making me forget my sadness today. Thank you for everything. :)

And to CHAMJDV, for not being there . . . Yeah thanks :)) No just kidding :) Still, thank you even if you weren't there :) I know the reasons, so I understand. I love you girls. x]

So, realized this isn't a Thank You post for everything that's happened during this school year yet? HAHA. Just for today. Because today was the conclusion of what happened the whole school year. And see, that's the only thing that matters, really. The end. And the people who stuck by you until the very end. And those people I was with in the beginning but not the end . . . Why would I be thanking you? :)

Labels: journal, school, VOTE

Friday, March 18, 2011

5:01 AM

To tell you the truth...

(title inspired by Emi's speech)

I originally wasn't going to run in the ESC Elections. Since last year I was always thinking about whether I should run or not, and when February came, my decision was that I wouldn't run and that I was going to focus on my studies and on college entrance exams. There was that lingering thought against that the filing for candidacy drew nearer, but I'd always push it away.

One day we were in the clinic having a check-up for the PSYSC Convention when Emi said to me, "Denise takbo ka." I already knew he would be running for president. And I had no idea what came over me but I replied confidently, "Sige."

That afternoon, Sir Renz asked who were going to run for the elections. I hesitated at first because I didn't know what position to run for. And I admit, I am not proud, that I took a position that had no other candidates yet: Committee Head on Discipline. We all met with Emi right away. And we immediately had a problem. Emi's party was already created, but we weren't allowed to have a party with members that came from one batch. The next days one of our original members was disqualified, and we recruited a member from the freshmen.

After that we got busy with the quarterly exams. I was not thinking about the elections. I was too damn busy reviewing. Four days of tests, and on Thursday, we were called to sign our form of candidacy. Then we planned on what we were going to do for the miting de avance the next Monday. We decided we were going to make a video showing our platforms, nature, purpose, etc.

The next day, Friday, achievement holiday, we met up at the school to shoot the video. But the 4th year graduation practices were ongoing, so our time was kind of wasted there. When Ate Mika was announced valedictorian and Ate Alayne only 1st Honorable Mention, I was completely horrified. What if I just go down to being 10th honorable? was the question running through my mind. And I thought, if I don't win, it's gonna be okay, so that I'll be able to focus on my studies more. After all, Ate Mika wasn't ESC, and she still got the highest award. So I didn't care. . . . But still, there was that rush of campaigning.

Sunday morning, before our meeting, Emi sent me his speech so that I can print it. I read the whole thing, and I was completely downgraded with what I had written. So I wrote a new one before leaving and headed to school again for planning. Unfortunately we weren't allowed there since it was a Sunday so we went to Patrick Ilao's house at Estates 2. (Ah, the Mira memories.) Abby met with us, and she helped us with our speeches. How awesome? Then we started planning for our entrance in the miting de avance. And damn, was the idea awesome. :D They bought the stuff at National Book Store then assigned them to us, so we could do our part. Mine was a fail that night. Wew!!

Anyways, the next day, Monday, we all went to school early to practice our entrance. Joanna, she made the damn silver pen I was supposed to used work. Haha! :)) Then Abby practiced us with our entrance later. We practiced and we practiced and we practiced. Then we ate lunch altogether. And after eating, we changed our clothes. We were in such a hurry because we were the first. And then. . . .

Picture this. Sing by Glee in the background. Two by two, by position, we enter, runway walking, with a bully word hanging on our necks. We're wearing black blazers, white polo/blouse, bright colored plain shirt, and black slacks. Emi, Meg and Paige are the last to enter. Two by two again, we go to the front of the group, tear our bully words, open our polos, revealing a strong word attached to our shirt inside. Then, our 4th year campaign managers, wearing the same formal wear, open their blazers too, but there's nothing attached to their front . . . for the words "I Go For VOTE" are on their backs. Finally, we candidates take five steps forward and shout "VOTE!" then head to our seats.

My bully word was "Lame." And it failed. See, I was so excited to tear that black paper off that I forgot to unbutton my blouse to let them see my strong word, which was "Awesome." I was like, DAMN!!! Total fail me. -___- Still I wouldn't let it bring me down. And then we all made our speeches. I was completely shaking when I was about to deliver mine, and y'know what? I got freaking cut off by Sir Chris. :)) I was one of the three -- and the only ones who got cut off came from our party. Wow. O_O Anyway, I thought I made a good speech but it turned out some didn't hear because my voice wasn't loud enough. And I admit, I got depressed and all disappointed with myself. Why? Because then, I didn't care whether I would win or not, but I wanted to show everyone what I could be capable of through my speech and my answer in the Q&A portion. And it saddened me to think that not everyone heard what I had to say. And then I thought, "What if I lose because they didn't hear me in my speech? What kind of losing is that?" If I was going to lose, I certainly wouldn't allowing that to be the reason of my defeat. No way. So yes, I was down.

The next day we woke up early yet again because we were given the chance to have a room-to-room campaign with the Grade 6 students. It was . . . erm . . . fun? :) Haha. I didn't want to hear the results because I didn't want to be given false confidence, or the other way around. And afternoon came and we stayed in Mirabello and started shading those circles. Then they started recording the ballots. Man, was I scared. After about 15 ballots, we went outside to check the other classrooms and the ongoing polls. And my head started to ache so bad and my body felt weak and I felt colder than ever. . . . *sigh* Emi got depressed because he didn't want to be the president when his officers aren't . . . well . . . the best. Aww. :(

And my head was still hurting and so I went to the classroom to take a nap. It took about two or three hours, then we ESC candidates were called to the AVR for the announcement of the winners. The funny thing was, we didn't get to go inside the AVR just yet. I mean really, we had to wait about 30 minutes before they let us in, and another 30 minutes (which seemed like an hour) before Kuya Carlo and Sir Chris come with the results. And they were given. :O

Now I am standing as the Committee Head on Discipline, and this is the story of how I came to be here. :D (Woo! Drama!) But yes. This is the start of my life. :)

Emi is President by the way! A big hand! =D>

Labels: journal, school, VOTE

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

7:31 PM

Mar. 22, 2010: Lies, lies, and more lies

I woke up at 4:00am. But I thought that was too early so I went back to sleep then woke up again at 4:30am. Again, I thought I was too early so I went back to sleep. Woke up at 5am. I figured that I'd just shut my eyes for a short while, but when dad was waking me up, I saw that it was almost 5:40 in the morning! Whoa! What a long nap, I thought. :))

When we arrived at the school, not much were there. I saw Ruth, then Aivette came, then Eminence and Paolo. Aivette and I went to the CR and saw Thalia there. Aivette and I went outside, then Vielka and Jonina arrived. And then Meg came, and then Michelle came. Meg went with the Comselec people. The rest of us with Thalia went to the AVR lobby to register for the YES seminar.

After a few minutes we went inside the AVR and waited for some more because Tr. Tina said we will start at exactly 8am. Then we were told that our guest speaker is a former student of Tr. Tina, she didn't state exactly how long ago. :)) But then when Mark - that's his name - came, he said it was 9 years ago, and mostly the Juniors - but us too - were laughing. =)) So the seminar started. We talked about leadership. Mark also mentioned that Sir Chris was also his teacher! Wow! They're old . . . O_O =)) Kidding. XD Then we went to the Physics lab and had some activities. We were grouped first. My groupmates were Michelle, Aivette, Klariza, Ate Eyen, Ate Nikki, Kuya Rogie (I think?? I'm not sure), Shekinah (I think??) and Vince. First we made a symbol or something like that. Ours was a face with some symbolism. Hahahaha. Nice. After that we were asked to make a tower out of manila paper. I really liked ours. :D Ours and the next group were the only groups to make our tower stand. Oh yeah! \m/ Hahahaha. :)) After that we had our break. Yes!!! :D

Most of us ate our lunch. Then Hanna came. She didn't attend the YES seminar. But we went back to the Physics lab and Sir Noel she could come in. Aivette said Hanna was corrupt. :)) We just had our election of officers for the next school year. Kuya Xtian was our new president, then Xander our vice president. I forgot the rest. Karistia was our level representative. After that, we were dismissed. We went back to the canteen because Hanna ate her lunch. Christine also arrived. We went to the corridor and waited.

Faenza was called inside the room by Sir Chet. He gave us the results of our CEM Achievement Test. English: Excellent; Algebra: Superior; Biology: Superior. As always, the Science subject is always my lowest subject. But it's superior. I think that's the first time I got that kind of result in Science in the achievement test. :)) So, I guess it's cool. :D And then we didn't know yet about the sequences so I got a low score especially in that part. :))

Next, the different parties for the ESC Elections came a-knockin' on our rooms. =)) I could only remember the VOTE Party . . . They really made such an impression with their "outfits," and Abby was a part of that party. When it was her turn to speak, Sir Chet released the cockroach! The cockroach is Abby's number one enemy. =)) Wooooooo!! We were all laughing. There were also Ate Ana: the foremost promoter of the hand dryer and Anton's sister, Ate Alayne: Vielka's sister, and Ate Erika: Xander's sister. Next was Ate Nikki and she has no brother or sister in our batch. :)) They're really funny! :D

Labels: Faenza, journal, school, VOTE

Monday, March 22, 2010

5:02 AM

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My name is Denise Soriano. IV-Chofu, ESC Committee Head on Discipline, Managing Editor (Administrative) of Echoes, YES member and PSYSC affiliate. Weeeee!

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