AWESOMENESS in the HOUSE!

Like a fly

I'm gonna have to put off blogging the day I had today for tomorrow. I just couldn't think straight. The only thing going on my mind is what I'm feeling right now. And I'm telling you, I don't like this feeling. This feeling sucks. You wanna know what feeling this is? This is feeling . . . is love. [-(

I thought love is supposed to make you happy, change you for the better, inspire you, and those kind of stuff. And I did experience this description of love. My love does make me happy, he changed me for the better, and truly inspired me. In ways I never thought possible for myself. I love him for that. If it weren't for him, I knew I could never be the same again. ^_^

But then I hear that if you don't feel pain, you don't really feel love. And I hear people saying that you feel the good times of love only during the first months. First three months? I dunno. :)) But actually, it's only been two months. Well, going on three on March 7. XD Karen's birthday! :D But yeah, I do feel the pain. The jealousy. The agony. The pain I feel every time I see "him" and "her" and doing what they do . . . It's not what you think. It's a different thing. And I don't hate the girl. I hate how they're like that. I hate how every time I remember that, I want to start crying.

Stupid love. Stupid me. Stupid me to love him like that. Why?! [-( :)) Okay, now I'm just being really dramatic. Haha. Karen said, "Every relationship has its own uniqueness." It is true, but . . . Gah, I can't find the words to say it. *sigh* I just hope this feeling will really, really go away. :D Like a fly. =))

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