AWESOMENESS in the HOUSE!

Baliw!

What should I say now? Haha. Truth is, I'm bored. And I don't wanna go to bed yet. Simply because I don't want to. :D I don't wanna wake up tomorrow and face the problems without my little helper. Tsk! :)) I don't know how I'm gonna make it through a single hour if my helper's not there. What if no one else is online? I'd have no one to talk to . . . [-(

I really do have a problem now. My friend . . . Is she still my friend? :(( I don't wanna be mad at her. But when she hurt my best friend . . . that was truly the last straw. I guess she could have hurt me all she wanted, but not the people close to me. My best friend was really angry, everyone could tell. Yes, what my friend did was extremely . . . unacceptable. What the hell did she do that for? :( I was disappointed. And the thing before that . . . What was that? Doesn't she realize . . . ??

I so don't know what to do. I'm angry, too. But what good will it do if I tell her, huh? Will she change? Because when I told her the last time that there's something wrong with her, the first days there really was a difference. Actually, even yesterday morning, I think there was a difference. A good one at that. But then . . . I don't know. It was like we were starting to drift apart. Then suddenly she went back to her old ways again. And then she did that thing to my friend. Really, what the hell? I want to make everything okay, but every time I flashback to that particular moment, all the anger washes over me. Does she have to be the one to say sorry?

Seems like I've been fighting with her a lot lately. Does that mean something? Should I stay away from her from now on? The last time I thought about that, my decision was made: that I won't stay away from her. That I'd never stay away from her. But she pushes everyone away by doing what she does. And what she does is wrong. Totally wrong. :(

But I guess I can't change her. Lord, please send her someone who is willing with all their heart to change her. Because she's like that, and if that's what you are, that's hard to change. Why change? Because she'll be crazy if she won't. :))

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