AWESOMENESS in the HOUSE!

If you can, please DON'T read.

I don't know what to do right now. But let's head to the happy part first. We won in the volleyball game vs. Marignano today! Nice, guys. :) Let's celebrate. But Justin was such a . . . yeah, I don't really know if there's a good name for whatever I'm thinking now, but yeah, he's an idiot. Such a stupid dumb guy. Poor Khalil. First the basketball game, now this. But at least he didn't back out this time. Thanks to all the volleyball players, we won! \m/ Maybe Faenza still rocks. Nope, erase the maybe. :P

The sad part. I don't know, I just can't decide. I know I should choose my friends, but she's my friend too. I know those many friends are my really real friends. But I just can't leave her. No one knows what's been going on. No one understands, and no one even tries to understand me, or her. I know, I shouldn't be defending her. Maybe. But it's just . . . I've gotten so close to her, too. And I know some stuff about her that not many know. Yet, I'm not really sure about her. I shouldn't be accusing her of something I'm not sure of, but I'm pretty sure of it, but I don't ever want to judge her especially now that we're really close to each other. And what I do like about her is my treatment for her that I don't usually do to my friends. (Hey, not saying she's my bestest friend cause she's not. :D We're pretty close, but KCHAMJDV still rules my world. \m/) She's different, which is nice. Though there are really some things I don't like about her. Especially her being someone I don't really like, which some say she wasn't like that before. I wonder who caused her to be like that. o_O I wish she isn't like that. I wish the sweetness would stay the same, but maybe not that sweet. And not to everyone. No, I am not selfish. :P My friends get what I mean by that, right? ;) Yeah. But I really, really, really don't want to leave her. Many hate her. We've only got a few years. . . .

I really don't know what I should do with her. One of my closest friends told me another one of my closest friends might be mad at me because she's disappointed that I'm still close with that friend of mine. We're not really sure if that's the reason, but it's possible. o_O So, if I don't stay away from that friend of mine, that close friend of mine might not talk to me anymore. And I don't want to ruin my friendship with that close friend of mine just because of this, but she doesn't understand what my friend of mine has been going through. I can't tell her, because it's a secret. But if it's really necessary, I might tell them. *sigh* I hope I wouldn't cause really, it's a big secret for me, and I hope they'd just understand. :((

What should I do? I don't want to leave her, either. Cause almost everybody else did. I don't want to turn my back on her. :((

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